Monday, July 8, 2013

Motivation Monday

Miles today: 6.09 miles, 58:06 min
Miles Saturday: 10.0 miles, 1:36:02 min
Miles in 2013: 593.75 miles

Home again! Being out of town for 4 of the past 6 weekends has taken its toll. I am tired. My suitcase has had a semi permanent home on the middle of our living room. (and yes, it is still sitting there as of now) The laundry pile is out of control and any time I have to get dressed I go through 4 different places/bags looking for shoes. On top of all that, between all the flights, drives, friends, and partying, my motivation has taken a serious, serious hit. I didn't even try to get up to run this morning. 

Granted, I felt like I was coming down with a bad cold last week and skipped a few days, but skipping an 8 miler yesterday was sheer lack of motivation. (mixed with lazy and a loud thunderstorm) I am not quite sure when or where it is coming from, but it is not good. Especially because my internal dialogue has been full of negativity and self doubt. My tempo runs have been really hard and I had a crappy (almost literally...) 4th of July 5K. Saturday's 10 miler I struggled and we were running an easy pace. In my head, all I could think of is how my marathon goals are too high and maybe I should re-evaluate everything. Followed immediately by, WHOA, Lianne. What the hell. Lock it up. 

I have read tons of articles on athletes and confidence and motivation and heard Kara Goucher talk all about self doubts. It is definitely something I struggle with more often than I like to admit. (Head case, party of one.) I wish there was some great cure or mantra or something that could make things easier or feel better, but there isn't. The only thing is to just get out there. On the road, on the track, and on the treadmill. No one is going to do it for you. And guaranteed that hammering through a tough workout will feel 1000 times better than sitting around and pouting or feeling sorry for yourself. (I feel like this applies to any aspect of your life really...)

Anyway, so that is what I did today and am doing this week. I know after a full day of work I am going to be tired, and fitting in a run between work and meetings isn't going to be easy. But I am going to do it anyways and not even let myself consider not doing it. So there. 

Other than all that, we did have an amazing weekend. Friday we packed up and hit the road to the east coast. Delray Beach is a small town just north of Fort Lauderdale. Larry lived there the first year we were dating and we love to go back. Summertime deals on hotels in Florida are the best. We ate and relaxed and had cocktails with some great friends. Perfect relaxing, not-too-far getaway. 

Saturday morning long run

A little planking action

Mango Habanero Margs

Beach time

Dance party 2013

Great friends

Going to crash early to get up early tomorrow for a little speed work.